(Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that person, and they with me. (Revelation 3:20))
This is usually how my day ends. I am done with my day. I get into my bed and start to mull over the days events and what I need to get done for tomorrow. My mind repeats the tasks in circles until it is exhausted.
When my mind is exhausted and begins to calm down, I hear thoughts that I did not know I had. Pretty soon I realize its not my own thoughts anymore. I realize it is God who was waiting for me to sit with him is talking to me. I realize I haven’t found the chance to meet him all day, like many other days.
So how many of you struggle with spending consistent time in prayer and studying the word every day? Do you make plans to pray but find yourself never getting to them?
My day starts with me thanking God before even opening my eyes. I constantly think of God throughout my day and read a verse or two when I find it in my way. But taking the time to meet with him for a divine appointment is something I struggle with daily. Though my thought out of bed is to spend time in prayer. I tend to postpone it because it seems like a daunting task to sit in his presence and sometimes other things seem easier to get done.
(But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. (Matthew 6:33))
This happens almost every day. He will be there waiting for me to go to him but I choose many other things to do than that.
At the end of the day as he waited and comes to me, to talk I find myself too tired to even get up out of bed to listen to him. I just close my eyes and let him talk. I drift into sleep and come out as we are having a conversation thinking I will take the time immediately after getting up to be with him and complete our conversation but again the same thing happens.
One fine day I realized I was not even giving the importance of a human to the eternal father who waits for me and looks after me. Even if a person you are not fond of comes during bedtime wouldn’t you go to talk with him, though you grumble? Wouldn’t the most important task be the first thing on our mind and we strive to do it before everything else.
After I realized it I just did not wake up the next day and start praying every day. Because to realize it is one thing and practice it is an entirely different thing. Some days it is easy to be with him and give to him all that I can but many days it seems something out of my reach.
I wouldn’t say I am doing it every single day now but knowing, I have strived to do it to the best of my ability makes me sleep peacefully at night. So let us not give up, but keep practicing to meet with him on that divine appointment every day so that we can be with our Father (who is also a comfortor/counselor/Helper) that we all need in this world every single day.
(You make known to me the path of life; in your presence, there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore. (Psalm 16:11))
Have a Blessed day!!!