I have been baptized for almost 3 years now… During the three years that I have known and experienced God, he has constantly worked on me like a sculptor working to make something. But the medium he has got is me(a stubborn rock). I must have been a very difficult person to deal with.
Before I knew Christ I did not know what sin was and or that I was a sinner. Who would think of themselves as sinners when we are good for the most part. I thought I was not worse many others out there(people who murder and do other bad stuff).
But when I was learning about Christ and started to really and truly understand him I could not make myself believe the lie anymore. I realized how much of a sinner I was and still am.
Realizing myself to be sinner was not the end of my sin but just the beginning to work on it. So my journey into knowing myself and making myself more like Christ started almost 3 years ago.
Since then, God because of his love for has started his work in me. Though I gave u sometimes he did not give up on me.
That he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. (Phillippians 1:6)
I have gone through some tough times being filled with guilt. I did not know how to overcome them. But when the time came and I completely surrendered to him asking him to change me and my ways, he did it. Because of his abounding grace, he has bought me out of so many of my sinful habits and has changed my life so much because I surrendered to him.
But the journey is not over yet. I still have a long way to go. The battle I am currently facing is to overcome watching youtube videos or some series too much. I have struggled with this for a long time. I watch a lot of stuff online. Nothing sinful but so much that it affects my life. I tend to get lost in a sea of videos one after the other and lose track of the time. I don’t want to get out of it and interact with anyone. I use them as a medium to relax and go to it whenever I feel down.
The task I have ahead of me is to reduce the amount of time I spend watching useless stuff. So tasked with this I have started to look outside in the world and think up of ways to battle them. I have listened to a lot of people on how they discipline themselves.
Last week while I was looking at a video and deciding to get myself together from the next day I heard a voice.
“Didn’t you already do this all the previous times and failed. But after you came to me I gave you my grace to overcome it. Don’t you still understand that my grace is sufficient”
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. (2 Corinthians 12:9)
Wow, that small sentence blew me away. Why did I not realize it? I thought I knew what grace meant but that day it changed the way I thought when people or I say its because of God’s grace. For me to overcome my sin I should not go out into the world to look for solutions but run to God.
Though I did it to a certain extent I understood I need to surrender myself more. I will start working on this from now on. Hope I get to experience God more and be able to walk away from the world and in the end truly be able to say that I am what I am because of God’s grace.
But by the grace of God I am what I am, and his grace to me was not without effect. No, I worked harder than all of them—yet not I, but the grace of God that was with me. (1 Corinthians 15:10)
I hope God will show you enough grace to overcome your battles too.
Have a blessed week…